My tea's gone cold I wonder why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

Dear Slim, I wrote but you still ain't callin
I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em
There probably was a problem at the post office or something
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
but anyways; fuck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter?
My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm bout to be a father
If I have a daughter, guess what I'ma call her?
I'ma name her Bonnie
I read about your Uncle Ronnie too I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him
I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan
I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam
I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man
I like the shit you did with Ruckus too, that shit was phat
Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back,
just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan
This is Stan

Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance
I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer fans
If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert
you didn't have to, but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
That's my little brother man, he's only six years old
We waited in the blistering cold for you,
four hours and you just said, "No."
That's pretty shitty man - you're like his fucking idol
He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do
I ain't that mad though, I just don't like being lied to
Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd write you
you would write back - see I'm just like you in a way
I never knew my father neither;
he used to always cheat on my mom and beat her
I can relate to what you're saying in your songs
so when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put 'em on
cause I don't really got shit else so that shit helps when I'm depressed
I even got a tattoo with your name across the chest
Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds
It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me
See everything you say is real, and I respect you 'cos you tell it
My girlfriend's jealous cause I talk about you 24/7
But she don't know you like I know you Slim, no one does
She don't know what it was like for people like us growin up
You gotta call me man, I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
Sincerely yours, Stan -- P.S.
We should be together too

Dear Mister-I'm-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans,
this'll be the last package I ever send your ass
It's been six months and still no word - I don't deserve it?
I know you got my last two letters;
I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect
So this is my cassette I'm sending you, I hope you hear it
I'm in the car right now, I'm doing 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim, I drank a fifth of vodka, you dare me to drive?
You know the song by Phil Collins, "In the Air of the Night"
about that guy who coulda saved that other guy from drowning
but didn't, then Phil saw it all, then at a showy he found him?
That's kinda how this is, you coulda rescued me from drowning
Now it's too late - I'm on a 1000 downers now, I'm drowsy
and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I ripped ALL of your pictures off the wall
I love you Slim, we coulda been together, think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me
See Slim; {*screaming*}
Shut up bitch! I'm trying to talk!
Hey Slim, that's my girlfriend screamin in the trunk
but I didn't slit her throat, I just tied her up, see I ain't like you
cause if she suffocates she'll suffer more, and then she'll die too
Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now
Oh shit, I forgot, how am I supposed to send this shit out?

Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy
You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?
Look, I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that
and here's an autograph for your brother,
I wrote it on the Starter cap
I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I musta missed you
Don't think I did that shit intentionally just to diss you
But what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too?
I say that shit just clowning dog,
c'mon - how fucked up is you?
You got some issues Stan, I think you need some counselling
to help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down some
And what's this shit about us meant to be together?
That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other
I really think you and your girlfriend need each other
or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter, I just hope it reaches you in time
before you hurt yourself, I think that you'll be doin just fine
if you relax a little, I'm glad I inspire you but Stan
why are you so mad? Try to understand, that I do want you as a fan
I just don't want you to do some crazy shit
I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick
Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge
and had his girlfriend in the trunk, and she was pregnant with his kid
and in the car they found a tape, but they didn't say who it was to
Come to think about, his name was.. it was you
Damn!

hello.
since KAK IJA WANNA ME TO BLOG BOUT HER BIRTHDAY. IM GG TO.
hahahahhahaha

well,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to kak ija,
happy birthday to you!

hahahahahahahaha.
and ily. so can watch r-21 already uh.
where else i cant even watch nc-16.
MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA.
tc of yourself.
byebye

and im happyto be back.wooooooooots

hello. hello. well,im speechless. since you accuse me of avoiding you and you she want me to go the other way?, i cant say anything. let her be happy for life.and i know the last msg, i wrote to 'you' nb right? well, im sorry. tired of this. youre been a great friend until 16th may, thanks.bye to you.

get back all mid yr paper. was rather alright. and mira, youre the best.HAHA. cs thanks for being with me when im in trouble. cs others wont even care about me when im having problems, i do help others, but i dont get back in return .well, its great to have a friend like you. i dont want to write anything more. im going to have peace in mind. bye.

to whoever, dont call me your fcuking friend alright. even brother of fuck or whatever lah.
i help you when youre in trouble, but when im in trouble myself, youre just ignoring me.
im not saying this to syahirah.
bye

hello yaw.wassup.
hahaaha.

yeahyeah. didnt update for a week for most?HAHA. lazy sia. okey whatever. well, mid yr was alright. maths paper is just 2moro. hahaahha. left with only maths and science. phewww. but erh, prelims is comingggggg. wtf. then its n'lvl on the 10 oct. so yeah. after n'lvl,no schooling yaw, freedom.hahahahhaah. so back to mid yr. english paper was alright. only for the letter writing, im too lazy to write long longgggggggg.hahaha,so short and sweet will do.HAHAHA. (mcm phm)=.= overall its alright lah. yeah. today paper was social studies. mostly didnt do it. what for uh?LOL. i just do some question will do. after paper, went to jrg east lib ,for chilling. nabei. paper end at 9.30. then go home?kentalan siol.HAHAHAAA. awwwww,the secondary 1 "bdk-bdk"have normal lesson till 2.20. hahahaahah. too bad mah. bought asap.HAH. then off to lib. chill2, hmmm. nothing much to talk lah cibei. till here. my post is such a sucker.hahahahahahaha.

ps: erh, miera!hahahah. well, i cant be possibly come school after n's.LOL. then im alone siol.everyone holiday.i go school.hahaaha. so yeah. im sorry uh. we can still meet up pal!hhahahaha.
tc diary..